Finally......

I was on my way to  shop to buy hair oil when the cool
 breeze from somewhere far away, in a gust, kissed my
 face and hugged me as if it knew i had longed for it. I felt finally it did come.
It was for the first time i experienced such breeze since i
 came here in college and it flew all across the area. I
saw the trees and plants dancing in delight along with it.
Weather was also good, black smoky cloud which has
 covered the ultra violet rays of sun in its feather making
 the so heated land cooler and better. I stayed standing
there for a moment enjoying the new air when suddenly
 a big plastic covered with sand hit my face. I opened my eyes but the eyes won't open because the sand has entered my eyes and slowly my eyes became watery. I rubbed to remove it but it rather created more rashes. Finally i got rid of it. I looked around and saw plastics and papers flying all over, few dancing up in the sky, making the space look ugly, all the rubbish that the consumers have dumped till now was sowing its seed. The freshness of air did not seem fresh anymore. The trees and plants did not seem delighted anymore when the paper hanged on their branches. My 'U' shaped smile turned downward.

I sheltered under the roof of the shop when i just got stuck with the memory of my school days when we were asked by our teachers to pick the papers during supw. That time, in teacher's presence we would be very sincere but as soon as teachers turned its back, we would throw back what we have picked. We weren't aware with what will happen in future. Various cleanings campaigns would be held to keep the city clean and green in schools, colleges and offices. Guess, the organisers knew what the consequences will be if they didn't come up with such initiatives.I feel very thankful to those wise thinkers as of now.

I came back to where i was and i just realized the hardwork that our government was putting upon to maintain the cleanliness  of the country and became happy that i was one of the people under which such government ruled. 

Causes and results of good and bad actions

Below are some answers for the questions that we humans often ask to god during emotional disturbances. It is put forward by Jigmed Thubten Thrinley Palzangpo, the 4th Dodrup Chen Rinpoche and translated by Jonathan Miller.

When Ananda asked to the Blessed One," though we in this world now have for once the support of human body, among us , some are handsome and some are unattractive, some are brave with great fortitude while others are cowardly. There are rich and poor, there are those who reach a hundred years of age, some die when young and others while in their mother's womb. some endure long life that is always stricken with suffering and some have unbeatable happiness and well being until they die". Like wise Ananda made his heart pour out for the  different questions he had about the lives of  humans despite being same creature.

The transcendent Buddha spoke, " Ananda, in accordance with your questions on different experiences that occur due to fully ripened consequences of former actions:

Through the peerless force of engaging in pure actions in former lives, one is in the present the most attractive among humans. Being beautiful and charming is the fruit of having cultivated patience in previous lives. Having a face the is ugly arises from karmic effects of anger.

Presently, being a destitute human without food and clothing is the fruit of having been stingy in the former lives. having great wealth and enjoyments is the result of having given generously in previous life.

Being human with great physical strength and splendor comes from abandoning pride and showing respect to the leaders of land. Being of puny physical stature and without strength comes from disrespecting Dharma out of pride.

Being the person who is the most spurned when participating in discussions and meetings is the sign of having done things in the course of your previous lives such as , though being at fault yourself, not disclosing it to others; and not accepting the explanations of ones shortcomings when told by others.

Having a sickly body with poor vitality, gaunt and beaten down by long lasting chronic diseases, while inwardly bearing spiteful attitude, the very condition is the result of being without faith in past and having disregard and appreciation for the value of Three Jewels.

Being human with an oral condition like cleft palate, harelip or other deformity is the result of eating the ritual cakes, butter lamps and other such foods offered  to chortens( stupas).

People whose eyesight is unclear comes from previously having gouged out eyes of other creatures, as is done by killers of small birds such as hawks.

 Those humans who are dumb mutes, unable to converse are experiencing the result and having said in a past life that there is no such thing as karma.

People who have teeth like predatory beasts are experiencing the result of previously loving to gnaw on the flesh and bones of sentient beings.

To appear ugly or repulsive among human beings can result not only from failing to respectfully salute Buddha but from any expression of disrespect.

Having heart disease can result from cutting the limbs off sentient beings and chopping them up in previous life.

Having leprosy or disease with sores that are itchy and weeping comes from having bullied the innocent, accusing them of wrong doing, then seizing their property and possessions.

Those people who are without progeny, male or female have previously killed baby birds. On the other hand, to some people are born many male and female children; they are experiencing the result of loving to nurture sentient beings.

Wealth arises from giving generously.

Possessing clear eyesight and sharp intelligence is the result of reciting the sutras and setting them in writing.

Having senses of sight, hearing, smell , taste, touch and mental faculties that are whole and free from defects of any kind is the result of preserving the discipline of ten virtues.

Having a foul smelling, bad tasting mouth is a result of scolding others with harsh abusive language.

Males who fail to develop sexual organs are experiencing the result of previously castrating or sterilizing dogs or pigs.

People who scornfully make fun of others by repeating the words they say and take pleasure in teasing them with contempt will later take birth as parrot.

Like wise what we have done in previous life has ripen its fruit in our present life and now that we know that the fate of our next life is decided by what  deeds we do in this life, so  we should as far as possible try to follow the path of dharma and teachings of Budhha, so as to have a life we always wanted to have in next life.

When the floor underneath shook.....

Apa, ama, aunty's son, my cousin and me, were on our way to Phuentsholing. I was to leave for India to pursue my further studies. The reporting date was 22nd of September. For the first time i was to experience a border life struggling all by myself, till now all depended upon my parents. My parents wanted to see me off from the border town since it will be the last  to share our parents and son glances  and  i would not see them for sometime from there on. With full excitement along with little sorrow for having to be separated from my parents, we reached Phentsholing. It was seventeeth of September month. Arriving to phuentsholing, i could feel differences in the weather in Thimphu and there, the scorching heat that was piercing through my skin and continuous sweating made me kept wondering if it was the case here, then how would i survive in India. Tired, we reached my auty's house and i didn't take a minute to take a nap on the warm bed. After i woke up, night has set in, environment  was cool and apa asked me to go with him to exchange the currencies. Just we were way home back when my aunty called me and asked me to go to play mela. " mela changmae dikhey kota",(kota:means brother,my home name) followed her sharp voice which still lingers in my ear. My heart almost reached my mouth while playing the giant rotatory wheel.After that, had some icecreams to remove off the circle-circle thing that was moving inside my head because of the wheel and then we were back at home. We all had dinner and went to bed for the peace day ahead.

"The morning is cool, fresh and today is my last morning in Bhutan", i thought. Apa and me decided to go for shopping after the breakfast. We didn't do shopping much, only the necessary things for the college. My only intention was to buy a mobile, went round the electronic shops written "NOKIA" on it. No mobile made me happy and if it made, the high price didn't supported me. Finally i picked up something in random, it was better and the price was suitable.

I was back at aunty's house, when at 3:00 pm, my friend called me to gather near moonlight hotel. We all met at 4:00 and gave our share of money for the train ticket. Rest of the day went doing nothing.

TIME: at around 8:30: DATE:september 18: my mother and one of my cousin(girl) was in the kitchen. Dad and uncle in the sitting room witnessing the dungtsho layreem(weekly health programme with the medical specialist), aunty gone somewhere and i was busy browsing through my new mobile, my elbow on the refrigerator, standing straight and behind me my middle cousin sitting on the bed going through his books. It was then, when i was about to open the music folder i felt the floor below me shaking, the glassed cupboard making irritating noise. For few minutes, i thought my brother was dancing behind, but when i saw myself shaking uncontrollably and the tings(holy bowl) falling off from the choesham(alter), there i realized..yes! its an earthquake. I didn't know what to do, my hands tight on the edges of the fridge, after sometime everything became dark, i felt my brother's hand around me from back, i felt the death so near, i thought before reaching college, i am going to meet the god of death and i started chanting "om mani padme hun, om mani padme hun"(prayer). The shake  lasted about 10 minutes and then suddenly, everything became silent and still. Just then, my uncle came running to the room shouting" phiska jukcho kota, Sonam(brother's name)" Still in shock, i made my way through the sitting room, no one was there, i was worried where my apa and ama went. I went down running, on my way, heard childrens crying, girls screaming. Outside, i saw people all gathered, my mom carrying my sister's baby( cousin) almost in tears but her tear fell off when she saw me and said " college mashekparang aei pura shelay lamay"(before u reach your college, we will all die) her voice vibrating. I remained quite, still in shock. I tried to call back home in thimphu, where my grandmother and brother is all by themself but the mobile singnalled connection error. All network and electricity supply was disturbed.We could contact no one. My father"s phone rang after sometime and it was call from my sister from her college in Sherubtshe, her voice too shaking as she was crying. Everything was dark, i saw few policeman with torches near our crowd, i heard them talking about the damages the earthquake has caused in the town.My mind still worried about my brother and grandmother, kept on trying home but in vain.

It was a relief when our houses were lit back to light, everything glittered, i could see everyone clearly and back to normal. I looked up on one of the window where i saw the thangka(painting of god on the silk brocade) hanging slanting, the shake has dispositioned it. Every one was hesitant to enter back to house with the fear of being hit again but after waiting for 2 hours outside, the number of people outside decreased, everybody felt safe to go inside,i also went inside with my family. Network was back, i called Thimphu and was relieved that everything was  fine.My aunty was also back home,her face red hot and was watching the BBS channel.

Tashi choden, the news reporter was speaking live in the studio "Bhutan has been hit by an earthquake of magnitude 6.8 just a few minutes ago........the epicentre is found to be in Sikkim......people are all ouside here in Thimphu....no deaths has been report till now...but  structural damages has been reported,our reporter  Tandin Phuntsho reports" followed by video of people all outside the house. Earthquake shake was recorded nicely on the live camera, when the dungtsho layreem was going on. Dungtsho was in the state of  the answering the questions that the interviewer was asking related to health that suddenly he stopped answering when he realized the shake,when the shake became severe the dungtsho jumped off from the sit along with the interviewer and finally the stage was empty leaving the camera with only table and chairs. The evidence of earthquake was shown by the vibrating stage recorded due to the vibrating camera. It was a disaster.
It was 12:00 midnight and we were still awake.

 Tomorrow i was to leave but i thought the journey would be cancelled thinking the damages the earthquake might have caused to the train tracks. Still then i was not sure, so to wake up early, i went into sleep with the fear  still inside me. After struggling for few minutes,i was finally into dreams....and i was never to forget that night ever in my life..the most deadly night of my life...!!

Strongest love in the world

Mothers' love will never die......!!! Strongest bond!!

Untold love story

"She is so cute! Why is she so beautiful? Is it so that i am loving her. In every angle, i find her no defect. Her eyes, her lips, her hair and most touchingly her voice....gosh! it kills me. She has made my life. She is everything to me. Her tapestry dancing in the air and blowing along with the gust of wind made the hard heart of a meek boy to experience the rhythm of crush for the first time. With the launching of his facebook account , unknown friends started sending request to him along with which the girl also made a part. Chating became the regular scene for this two fellows who never knew what was going to happen in the future.

Slowly their friendship grew stronger and stronger but the heart of the boy gave new name to his friendship. He started loving her desperately and so...desperately! Facebook chat switched to mobile sms but calling was not something that the girl was ready for. But the boy was ever ready to listen to her voice. Once she made a sudden call to him who was in an intoxicated state with the hard drinks running through his veins but her charming voice freshened him up and that night was his most wonderful night. Calls become twice in a week and the boy was in the cloud nine with her but the girl didn't get the slightest idea of how the boy was thinking about her as of the boy never dared to share his feelings to her. One day, the boy gave her some hint when he was to leave for India to pursue his studies, he told her that home wouldn't be the big deal  but his departure from her would surely sadden him. The girl showed the care and love towards him which made him think she too had some soft corner for him and the fact that the girl told him that she would call the boy when he reaches the border town though her mobile was not working, she would anyhow call him from her friend's mobile made him more touched.

 As soon as he reached the border town, he could reach her and then, he could dare atleast ask her whether she had a boyfriend or not the the answer was 'no' which meant a lot for him. Now, as we know, in every love story misunderstandings block the way, it too happen to his love story which was a tragedy.  Reaching college, the boy had to make apologise for loving her, for not able to convince her with his love, and taking their relation into more than a friend but her reply made him more suspense. She said to him that she never heard the words and he never uttered to him and she was a big.........??? that black space at last was his curiosity. He could never ask what was it. He had no idea after that what he should be doing. He felt depressed and lonely. In the crowd also, he felt solitary, more over he would close his room door and get lost into his own world without saying a word with his friends. His friends on top never made an attempt to give him company with his sadness as they were of more worry of how to spent their christmass vacation. Everyone left for their trip and he was left alone. He could share his feelings to nobody except his diary that he had especially bought for her. Once again, with the help of his friends, his friends could do not much but at least attempted to be friend with her through facebook and tried to convince her how much he loved her. She said "yes!...now i am realising that he really loves me" followed she said, she is not going be in relation with anybody and thats forever.why is that? Is it that she has got another guy, or has she been betrayed by her true love in the past or she has got some other reason that even after realising there is someone who really loves her and as we know true love is rare thing to achieve, she cannot except his love. Question mark with no answer.

He got more depressed with his epilogue of the story turning into tragedy. Nothing was helping him and he kept on thinking what was there that he could not understand her or she didn't understand. But unlike other guys, he didn't go into drugs and all, doing that he thought it would make his love more cheap and rather he decided he would be strong and not to give up so easily. He said to himself he would meet her once personally and pour out his thoughts and questions. He is the true Romeo and yes! he is the real Singye who is ever ready to except her Galem even if she had the deadly disease hiv. The first part of the epilogue has shown its colour and now let us wait for the second part to show up. Let us see what is lying behind after his secret meeting with her.....lets wait and watch!!

LOVE UNLOVED

Simple, smily, kind-hearted, beautiful

She is been described

Never seen her, never talked with her

Pictures and words touches a lot though

Hi! Hello! says she

Doubts the man who said ' i love you'

Did he really mean that, doubt!

But has got soft corner around.

Ain't beautiful is how she describes herself

His mind turns deaf ear

Friends' say not that beautiful

Is she really not?

God makes couple in heaven

Destined is what people refer to

Are they really destined?

Neither of them sure

Has fate brought them in contact

Will they cherish forever

If so, let pray come true

For two yellow roses to be a red

Forever and forever....!

Trip to the land of pearls

It's been almost three months now that i am in college. In Bhutan, if we are in school, at this time of the year we would be expecting for the winter break but here in college, in India we are getting christmass holiday though we buddhist donot celebrate. We have got about 15 days and few of our friends decided to go on trip to Hyderabad popularly known as the land of pearls.

Hyderabad city at night

 It was 6 hours journey from our college, moved at 12p.m and reached there around 6p.m. As soon as we stepped out of bus, a group of auto drivers was forwarding towards us with an  uneven staring. We got up with two of them as we were eight in number and they landed us in a standard hotel as our friends described. The next day, we started our journey around Hyderabad. First day, we went to the wonderful shopping mall where all kinds of things were available in effective prices compared to other shops. At one moment i felt like i would buy the shop itself getting attracted towards the beautiful  clothes, shoes and various items. I got hold of  2 jeans, one formal pant, 4 t- shirts, 2 collar shirts, 3 socks and a shoe. That was for my body, rest lots of other items ate up my pocket visiting other shopping malls. Our day ended with shopping itself, going here and there, not getting up well with auto drivers, stuck in between the numerous vehicles, crossing the road without the traffic signal was almost impossible, watching the vehicles itself gave me pain in my eyes. Bhutan's population seemed more than India's vehicles. We reached weary in our rooms, got hold of remote control and browsed through the channels. My eyes  and ears got enraptured with a man with a headphone and a recording mike infront of him singing the song ' why this kolaveri kolaveri di'. It was the song getting sweetly into the ears of most people not only Indians but other foreigners too.

four towers(charminar)

 Next day we woke up with a sweet tea and a shower and headed to our next mission to visit the unique sites. Firstly, we went Charminar which means 'char-four' and 'minar-tower', four tower which is listed among the  most recognised structures of India. Its 149 winding steps almost made me vomit but reaching above and giving my eyes the scene of big Hyderabad flashed off my sickness. We did some flash on pictures, met a guide who was explaining us about the history of it, took round of it and reached back down. Next we went to the snow world, a place where snow had been made artificially temperature regulated and giving the sense of being in a mountainous place. It had been a long time since i have enjoyed playing with snowballs and snowman. We did snow fight, danced as the music was also on, took a coffee and slided upon the long ice skating route and all this thing made me remember my childhood memories in Thimphu changangkha during late 1990s when i was just 8 years old, i would bring a cup and fill up the cup with snow, make it into a shape and store it till it would have melted into a liquid.

snow world

Thirdly, we went to i-max where wonderful playgrounds were available. Most wonderful was the scary house, it was dark inside, we were holding eachother but could not see, dead bodies were made artificially, eyes bulging into red fire, various scary sounds were coming from nowhere, it was really scary actually but was a funny experience too..haha..Then we went up to a Mc Donalds to fill up our stomach, had some eating programmes with pizzas and burgers..yummy..it was. Next we played various games and in the mean time i won a small doll...Hurray! i shouted, but not loudly..Night fell within no time and we were back to our hotel rooms. The other days was a day without not much things to do..we went to a chinese restaurant where the propieter was a chinese and his shop's speciality was 'momo'. Wow! i didn't eat momo for a long time and i gave my satisfaction  to the fullest. My friends went to do some shopping but three of us went back to hotel as we were quite tired. Harry potter ate me up the rest of the day as it was luckily on the channel. We decide to come back to our college the next day as our purse was giving us a negative signal though we wanted to stay. Early evening we got into bus and reached our destiny at around 9. Was a memorable moment..
Thanks to the christmass holiday..

merry christmass to all.......